It’s been 25 years since 9/11.
And in all that time, I have never once posted anything about my personal experience on that day.
For one thing, there was no such thing as blogging or social media in 2001, children.
Once we had both, it seemed like everyone posted their 9/11 memories on each anniversary – except me. I figured if everyone else was doing it, there was no point in me adding to the noise, especially as I wasn’t in NYC at the time and didn’t know anyone who was killed in the attacks. And besides, I’ve never been one to go for obvious low hanging fruit when looking for stuff to post.
Which is not to say I didn’t post anything on 9/11 anniversaries – just not my personal experience.
Well, I have now on Bluesky, and I’ll post it here too.
Anyway.
I happened to be in Campbell, California that week on a press tour. On 9/11, I was woken up at 6:55am local time by a call from my bride in Hong Kong telling me America was being attacked in multiple cities, and wanted to know if I was okay.
I turned on the cable TV and spent the next 24 hrs being generally stunned and full of dread. The same was true for the other journos and PR people on the same junket. We talked about it a lot, and of course we were shocked, but we all dreaded what would happen next in terms of Bush Jr’s response.
I have three distinct memories of that day:
1. I walked into a Trader Joe's near the hotel to stock up on snacks, since I was going to be staying longer than I thought. I was wandering the aisles listening to Republicans on news radio demonising all Muslims and demanding war. It wasn't hard to see that the Bush II admin was prepared to run with that line, in terms of Islamophobia, war and civil liberties in general. Of course we didn't know how bad it would get, but it's fair to say that everything that's happened since 9/11 is what made the Trump Dynasty possible.
2. I flipped channels a lot (even ESPN and The Weather Channel were covering it), but I mostly watched CNN, because Fox News was noticeably the loud "we'll report any rumour no matter what" option. (Note: I wasn’t familiar with Fox News at the time, and this was before they went full Republican Propaganda Network, though perhaps that’s where it all started.)
3. I was originally supposed to fly back to HK on 9/12. Naturally my flight was cancelled with all the others, and it took me until Saturday (9/15) to rebook a seat. I will say Singapore Airlines handled it pretty well under the circumstances and their comms was quite good.
Anyway, those are the highlights of what I remember.
Why post them now?
I guess partly because of a Bluesky post I came across showing screencaps of a post on X by “Brain Leakage” [@BrainLeakage03] responding to someone on Twitter who said they didn’t get why ppl above a certain age were all “weird and worshipful” about 9/11.
Which raised the point that enough time had passed that there were scores of young ppl online who were born after 9/11, and thus for them it was just another history date, the same way us Gen Xers thought about Pearl Harbor or the Kennedy assassination when we were in our 20s.
Anyway, here’s what “Brain Leakage” wrote in response, which I think gets to the heart of it.
Since you weren't even born yet, I'm going to answer in good faith:
9/11 was America's collective loss of innocence. In the decades prior, we'd won the Cold War by outspending the Soviets. We were the sole remaining superpower, and we were in a period of peace and economic prosperity.
Then, seemingly out of nowhere, we suffered a suicide attack with a higher death toll than Pearl Harbor. It struck a city on the US mainland, the first attack of that scale to hit CONUS since the Civil War.
In a violent flash, and on live television, our collective illusions of safety, security, and peace disappeared. For most Americans, it was the first time we ever had to contend with that scale of horror, and what it implied about the fragility of our way of life.
It was simultaneously sobering and terrifying. The American response was to launch two wars, and to restructure domestic life around the Government's presumed duty to spy on everyone, so nothing like it could ever happen again.
I am not being hyperbolic when I say the America we grew up in-imagined or not-vanished on 9/11.
What you're calling a "worshipful attitude" is a mix of reverence for the dead, and mourning for the loss of what existed before.
Never forget,
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